Life is going haywire....

There is an issue in my personal life that is upsetting me quite a bit today. Something I found out last night but don't want to do an in-depth discussion for all the world to see. Suffice it to say that I feel that the rug has been pulled out from under my feet, numb, lost. I am proud to say that thoughts of food did not even enter into my mind when everything occurred and I have continued to feel that way today. Have eaten nothing different than my usual meals and snacks with no thoughts of any sort of eating to forget or to numb the hurt, no mindless snacking just because it is something I can control in a situation where I feel so out of control. That's good. That's what I want to happen at times of stress, no tendency to turn to food for consolation. I never saw myself as one who did that and this has pretty much backed up that idea. On the flip side, I HAVE had thoughts of going in the total opposite direction and NOT eating as much as I should. Why I'm not sure. Again, maybe it is something about the control issue just working in reverse. Because I had those thoughts last night, I am making sure that I do eat as I should today, right on schedule. I can honestly say that the idea of sweets or snacking is just a huge turnoff to me right now, never thought I would say that! I love sweets! On a positive note, at least the leftoever Halloween candy holds no temptation at all for me so that'll help me get back into the lower half of my acceptable range as i prefer to be but haven't stayed at for a couple of weeks. lol Thats about the ONLY positive I can find right now, but its something to hold on to. I was supposed to weigh-in at Curves this week but with all thats going on, I simply don't feel like going to the gym. Can't go tomorrow, won't go Thursday. But I have made a personal promise that I'll get up on Friday and go for a 5 mile walk, its been way too long since I did that. It'll give me some time to be alone and clear my head which is what I really need right now. Have a great day, and if you have a moment, send a prayer my way.